Full Saturday Ahead

I planned to go to the gym this morning, but that danged little voice talked me out of it. My ankle hurt a lot when I got home after the rehearsal, and I was on my feet 1/10 of the time I will be today! I decided to rest my ankle this morning. I'll have to wear comfortable shoes. Not pretty, but comfy. I seem to have lost a pair of shoes somewhere. They're soft and cushy, and they're missing.

I went to a retirement brunch for a dear friend at Mimi's in the Rim. I love Mimi's. The food there is fabulous. And the people who attended the brunch are ladies I've known for many years at work. The limited menu was full of wonderful options. I chose a Cob salad, which was fabulous. Each guest got a cupcake from Gina's, and my meal came with a muffin. I got them both to go, so Andy and I had a treat after I got home from the wedding.

I'm envious and sad at the same time about my friend retiring. Envious because she won't have to go to work every day, and her time will be her own. Sad because this means I won't see her nearly as much as I do now. Unfortunately, that hasn't been very much lately because of my Toastmasters involvement this past year. I'm hoping she'll be able to join us for our weekly meetings once she figures out her retirement schedule. We discussed a monthly dinner at Mimi's. I like that idea a lot!!!

After the party, I headed to church for the wedding. We have Altar Guild this weekend, so my partner and I will get there early to do our duties before the wedding craziness begins. The rehearsal was long, but we got through it, and I think everyone is comfortable with how the wedding will happen.

Once I got home after the wedding, I was exhausted and my ankle hurt a lot, so I just had cereal for dinner. I watched TV for a couple of hours, then I took a hot, relaxing bath with some bath salts that I received for my birthday. The combination of herbs smelled so good. It was such a pleasure. I climbed into bed, and before I knew it, I was sound asleep.

I have to have a doctor look at my ankle to see what's wrong with it. It hurts when I step on it. The pain came on all of a sudden when I was on vacation the first week of April. It's been 2 months, and it still hurts. Dang. I was hoping it would heal itself. I was thinking it starting hurting because I wore mules the whole time I was on vacation. But not wearing them hasn't helped it any. I found the comfy, cushy shoes yesterday while rummaging through my trunk for tissue paper, so I'll try wearing them for a few days to see if they help.

Once my ankle heals, I think I'll be able to hit the gym more fully. I tried the Zumba class, but I only made it through 30 minutes before I had to quit for the pain. I can't imagine what I did to hurt it.

Geneen Roth article makes me think

A friend shared a Geneen Roth article from her website. It really made me think about my motivation to lose weight.

You know, for the most part, I'm happy. I wish I could move around easier, I would like to live without pain, and I'd like to be able to buy clothes anywhere, not just Brylane, but I'm happy.

I don't really want a husband, maybe a companion, but at my age, I don't want to hook up with someone that I'll eventually have to take care of. It would be nice to have someone to take care of me, but losing weight won't guarantee that.

Something that happened when I was gathering photos and putting the PowerPoint together for my Toastmasters Club's 20th Anniversary party really surprised me. Most of my adult life I've been unhappy with the way I look in photos. Putting the photos together forced me to face myself in photos. After my initial displeasure, I realized that that's me. That's the way I look. I'm no beauty queen, I'm no Twiggy, but I have a degree, a great job, a couple of great kids and 2-1/2 grandkids. I'm intelligent, I have a good sense of humor. I've developed friendships with people in Toastmasters, and I have a few really great friends outside TM. They like me because I'm me. Not because I'm thin. I've actually had people tell me that I inspired them. WOW! What a compliment.

So, what would be my motivation to lose weight and keep it off? To be healthy. If I lose weight just doing what I can to be healthier, and I actually achieve that as I lose weight, then I'd have what I want. James Arthur Ray said that concentrating on losing weight will not make you successful in the end. But if you concentrate on being healthy, you have a better chance.

OK, I'm running on and on. I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Especially since I quit WW and am going to the gym. I have to have something to motivate me. I managed to gain 7 lbs in the past 2 weeks. So, I'm going to have to work on my motivation and a weight loss plan. I was following a high-fiber diet to help achieve better health, lower cholesterol, and all the other benefits of a high-fiber diet. For some reason, I slipped off the high-fiber diet. I don't really know when it happened. I just realized yesterday that I slipped back into old habits. Dang! It's so easy to go into unconscious mode and follow old habits. This is hard! But, if I try to be more conscious about my decisions, I can turn the corner.

What is your motivation?

135 keeps getting farther away

I quit going to Weight Watchers a few weeks ago because I didn't like the way they pulled the money out of my account. I never knew when it would hit, and if you're on a tight budget like I am, it sometimes cost an extra $25. Anyway, long story short, I've been going to the gym, and I've been eating a high-fiber diet (at least until this, my birthday, week.) The past few days I felt uncomfortable in my skin, and especially in my clothes. The scale this morning told me why. I've gained 10 lbs since the last time I weighed in at WW.

DANG! So off to the gym I went. I rode the bicycle for 20 minutes. I know it's not a lot, but I'm still getting the hang of going regularly. Yesterday when my alarm went off, I reset it and rolled over. At least today I went. This makes 3 days so far this week. I plan to go tomorrow, and I can go early Saturday. The rest of Saturday is completely booked with a retirement luncheon, Altar Guild, and a wedding. I'll definitely work off the luncheon at the wedding. I hope I remember to wear my pedometer so I can see how many steps it takes to do a wedding.

It's 6:20 AM, and I've already logged in 966 steps!